Forever Young

Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost. Just because I'm losing doesn't mean I'm stuck. -Coldplay, Lost

Let us die young or live forever.

I can't place how i'm feeling right now. i wonder if im going to be cut off from most of my emotions forever. i wonder if i could even handle dealing with them in a mire head on approach.

of course i never finished the thoughts above. eh well. maybe another time.



yeah, venting. if only letting it out made me feel better, but it doesn't. the video says enough, so yep.

once again, maybe i'll get up on it and say something more with my words.

The past and its ugly head....Part 2

The part2 to the last video. Sorry it took so long. Soooo much has been going on. I'll do a video about it today.

the past and its ugly head

i woke up this morning, around 6:30am, thinking of the past. 14 or so years ago, in the past. I must've been dreaming about it and saw something that bothered me, because i woke very abruptly, as if i were in the middle of something. at least thats how it felt. interrupted. like my life, in general.

its never fun to relive memories that gave you nightmares for a long time. i wonder every time i think about it, if its that evil presence putting it in the universe for me to think about. i dont know. i'm just overtired and not in the mood. i just want to get the hell out of here. i hate this place, the food, the half ass therapy, the aides, and this fucking wheelchair. i'm sick of it all!

anyway, here it is. the vids. i'm going to try and relax my mind.


here's the latest couple of videos...a silly one i forgot about and then my usual vlog entry.

prepare yourself for some extra honesty


funny lil video