The past 9 months have been craptastic. BUT the last 6 months in the hospitals and rehab have been EXTRA shittastic! Do I even want to get into all of it? I'm not entirely sure I can. I've tried the last few months several times to just let go and write about it, but its hard. A lot happened. Alot of things that i wish i could remember and a lot i wish i could forget.
I guess for now I want to open up my mind to writing again, on a regular basis. Its killing me inch by slow inch to b closed up like this and let it all out, especially after all the shit my Lupus has put me through. The last 9 years has been my own private nightmare and the last 12 months of paralysis and almost dying and not feeling my feet or legs and having a non-working left hand AND having all kinds of ppl flake on me.
OK. I'm done. For now at least. Hopefully ill be able to keep it flowing. Especially since Silvercrest is an emotional and creative draining place.
We'll see.
I'll be around.
